I've been telling myself that I would post a legit post for the past 4 days and I just haven't had the time or the want to. But now I'm sitting in APES bored out of my fucking mind and about to do practice free response essays since the AP test in monday. But I really couldn't give two fucks because I know I'm failing it anyways. I haven't done one single thing to prepare for my APs. Except AP Studio Art which I will hopefully at least get a 3 on. But we'll see because my portfolio was rushed and shit. IDGAF literally. I'm so done with school it's not even funny. I'm ready to graduate and leave. I hate everyone here anyways. 


I'm starting to go back to it all. The feelings and everything. I hate feelings, really I do. They suck. I just want to like myself but I can't even do that. – I liked falling asleep on the couch with you and laying there with your arms around me the entire night and finding both of us in the same positions snuggled into your chest in the morning. I like silence between us because I just get annoyed when you talk about your music and work so just laying there in silence with our bodies doing the communication, that was lovely. 


I wreak of nostalgia.
And I'm really hungry and feel nauseous.


(It's now late at night but when I wrote this it was about 1 p.m. Jusssayinn)

YOU TEXTED ME FIRST TODAY!! Out of nowhere for no reason at all because you probably just wanted to talk to me....and then my phone died. HAH


It's really sad that I'm getting excited over you texting me first.........since we like...never text.....
..............we only talk with our tongues...........
hahahahhaha
I know you're dying right now Alena hahahaha (I exaggerated this a little just so you would haha)




Well here's my long over due post...haha
I say haha too much haha.......haha