I was looking back at my tumblr posts from about a month ago and there was one post where i wrote about how i missed being around people i actually wanted to be around. now that i think about it there has never really been anyone that i wanted to be around except for my best friend. she's actually my only real friend. i always get sick of everyone. even my close "friends" i get sick of. they get on my nerves and i just don't want to deal with them. alena is the only person i have never hated.

i literally have no friends. no friends that truly interest me. no one besides alena that i feel completely comfortable with. is this a sad thing? or is this normal?