i'm having a dgaf summer. and it's been pretty damn good so far.

i think i'm getting over you little by little. we don't talk which helps. there's other guys around which helps. i'm going out and having fun which helps. i'm meeting new people which helps. but i know that the minute you text me or contact me, or the next time i see you, i'm just going to fall back into this same pathetic mind set of liking you.

talk to me, but don't talk to me

want me, but don't want me

stay away, but come to me

i literally have no fucking idea what to do anymore

because i know what's better for me but i don't know if that's what i want.

someone told me no one really cares. there's just that one person that's there and you keep going after them because there's no one better to go after. i don't know if that makes sense. but it did when he said it and it did when she said it. and it does in my mind.

whatever, i'm just crazy. why am i even wasting my time writing about you?

ugh, you are so full of shit.

sorry i'm lagging on the posting

It would be nice if you texted me sometime. Or called me sometime. Or maybe asked ME to hang out. Just saying. I mean, I don't expect you to because good things in my life never work out. But it would be nice. Maybe just tell me what's up instead of leaving me to question everything. Thanks.

i hate when you leave me confused.

When I was little, my best friend and I would do the most horrible thing. We would get crickets and we would stick needles through them and wrap them up in saran wrap and freeze them. Apparently we even had a song we would sing while doing it, but I forgot how it went. It's the most disgusting, cruel, morbid, wicked thing we have ever done. I feel so horrible about it now. I think it's why we both have the worst of luck.

I'm so sorry little crickets that we killed. We're murderers. Maybe that's why I don't have the heart to kill any insects now. Either that or it's just because I think they are fucking gross.

TODAY IS MY BFIL, DANIEL KATZ'S BIRTHDAY!!!! 1, 2, WOOT WOOT!

(i know i look like shit, don't hate. it was really sunny at the beach)

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just because. LOLZ don't judge

ALL THAT GLITTERS AIN'T GOLD

I've created a tumblr!!!!

visit it: http://radioactivekitty.tumblr.com/

I'll still post here but I'll probably use tumblr more frequently as it's more convenient and quicker to use.

So, visit both! :-)

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stop being a creeper and suck a big one. <3

today in class my friend Connor helped me figure out what i am going to do for my final in art class. it's going to be a painting of the Mona Lisa but it's going to be pimped out with dreads, penciled eyebrows and extremely long eyelashes, teardrop tattoos, an "I heart LA" shirt, facial piercings, bling, some tattoos, including a "Leonardo" tattoo, and maybe a blunt or cigarette. good idea? i think so. i'm really excited to work on this.
this week is election week. my good friend is running for VP. we stayed up until 1 am last night/this morning working on her campaign and we still have more to do. i'm so exhausted so i'm going to peace the fuck out.

My kitty came home today but I received horrible news. I can't have any contact with her for 12 days. I have to stay 6 feet away from her so I don't get radiation. I literally feel like crying. This is going to be difficult as hell.

i'm really happy right now :-):-):-)

p.s. my baby's coming home tomorrow! fuckyeahh